Let it Go, The Past Always Bothered Me Anyway

Meme that says, "You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. I think that if I talked to 100 people, removing the one who walked away asking me who the hell I was and why was I talking to them, lol, the individuals who… Continue reading Let it Go, The Past Always Bothered Me Anyway

The Ghost of Mother’s Past

After a staggering eight years of regular therapy, you move on from the misery of analyzing your late, abusive husband and you start to explore other areas of your life. For quite a long time, until I was into my 40s, I always believed what my mother and her family told me: I was bad,… Continue reading The Ghost of Mother’s Past

Reflections of Anxiety and the Struggle for Peace

Unless you've experienced anxiety firsthand or lived through it with a loved one, it can be very difficult to understand why people dwell on things. Perhaps some people want to keep something in the forefront, but for me, things that happened before can work very hard in your mind to keep you unfocused and disoriented.… Continue reading Reflections of Anxiety and the Struggle for Peace

Out with the old (BS) In with the new (Good Stuff!)

I've written about this before and well, the issue never really completely goes away, so it's always good to revisit it from time to time. Not to dwell on it, but to acknowledge its real impact on life and well-being. It's a topic in my therapy now and probably always will be! I have the… Continue reading Out with the old (BS) In with the new (Good Stuff!)

Adopted Once…Orphaned Twice

This is my story and mine alone. Your results may vary. The one message I DO not wish to convey in any shape or form, is that adopting a child is a negative thing. I know plenty of people who were adopted and grew up in very loving homes and enjoyed a wonderful life due… Continue reading Adopted Once…Orphaned Twice

In the Silence I Found Myself

As a survivor of domestic violence and emotional abuse, I've had to come to terms with the fact that not everyone is going to treat me now the way I was treated in my past. Sure, there are times when there is something said that triggers a memory and makes me anxious and I may… Continue reading In the Silence I Found Myself

The Overthinking Mind

Some, most...ANYONE who knows me will tell you that I am a raging overthinker about everything. I have been criticized for it countless times, told that I am very negative. What people cannot see inside the person who is showing these signs is the deep, personal, internal struggle that the anxiety creates. In addition, these… Continue reading The Overthinking Mind

The Constant Assault of Anxiety

I have probably had anxiety for a lot longer than when I was first officially diagnosed with it. People who have anxiety have been labeled by friends and loved ones for all time, albeit not always with kind intentions. I remember being told I was disorganized, scatterbrained, a chatty cathy, overanalyzing, overthinking etc. Too many… Continue reading The Constant Assault of Anxiety

Removing the Stigma of Therapy and The Never Ending Search for My Happy Ending

Once in a while, when I mention to someone, "I am in therapy", I hesitate. I believe that subconsciously, my thoughts go to, "What will they think of me if I'm in therapy?" "Will they think I'm somehow damaged...broken?" "Maybe if I tell them why it will help?". Most people who know my story of… Continue reading Removing the Stigma of Therapy and The Never Ending Search for My Happy Ending

There is no Shame in Being a Survivor

There are some people in my life who would probably prefer that I drop the issue of my former abuse done by my late husband. There were plenty of people who knew what I was going through and they CHOSE to not intercede. Once, I was told by someone I went to for help, "NO… Continue reading There is no Shame in Being a Survivor