So, earlier this year, I decided to go back to college full time and I knocked it out of the park with making the Dean's List, an invitation to the Honor's College and Honor Society and a perfect 4.0. I'm damn proud if I do say so myself. Repeated the same grades again this Fall.… Continue reading Stuff I’ve Been Doing Instead of Writing
This summer, I chose to go back to college. Wonderful right? Feeling great about myself, finally pursuing my degree. Yes, until I realized that I was taking FOUR three credit courses in a summer-timed schedule. That means that each class requires about 3-4 weeks of work in one week. So, yeah. Thankfully, two of them… Continue reading Well That Was Stressful
A long, long time ago in a far away place within my mind, there existed nothing but chaos. There was this resounding, continuous droning in my mind of all the things that I was facing, dealing with, living with...experiencing. I felt I didn't have control of any kind over my destiny, my future, even the… Continue reading Ghosts in the Machine
There are times when I would like to take a hammer to my restless mind. I don't mean that in any literal way, but there are times when I wish it would just hush up and let me be. I'd like to think that I have this control over it and I can just say,… Continue reading Just Keep Swimming
Some, most...ANYONE who knows me will tell you that I am a raging overthinker about everything. I have been criticized for it countless times, told that I am very negative. What people cannot see inside the person who is showing these signs is the deep, personal, internal struggle that the anxiety creates. In addition, these… Continue reading The Overthinking Mind
I've written a LOT about difficult family in the past. While "getting it out" is cathartic for certain, there is a certain aspect of it that pulls negativity into the forefront. I get comments from readers all the time that talk about how things hit home due to the way my words rang true for… Continue reading The Merry Bells Keep Ringing
After you emerge from the grief of widowhood, there is no particular time frame. You don't wake up on day 167 and say, "I'm done grieving." Well, I can't speak for everyone, but in general and in my own personal experience and research, grieving is something that, for some, is never finished. For others, it… Continue reading The Unique Occurrence of Finding Happiness and Love after Widowhood (and learning to be happy about it)
I'm pretty sure I've used this quote before because, well, I still am dealing with some very difficult people in my life. When you reflect upon the challenges and other things that you've gone through in your life and you realize as you get older that you need to somehow begin the process of coming… Continue reading Accept the Things I Cannot Change
Once in a while, when I mention to someone, "I am in therapy", I hesitate. I believe that subconsciously, my thoughts go to, "What will they think of me if I'm in therapy?" "Will they think I'm somehow damaged...broken?" "Maybe if I tell them why it will help?". Most people who know my story of… Continue reading Removing the Stigma of Therapy and The Never Ending Search for My Happy Ending
If there was one major thing that I think should be required when you date someone, it should be either the ability to find out from someone else who dated them what the bloody hell is wrong with them. That option not available? Then I think you should get an exit interview. I don't go… Continue reading To All the Guys I Suffer…Endur…Put Myself Through the Misery of Dating
