The Conflict of Contradiction

Meme with heading "Women's Magazine: Page 14: How to lose weight fast; Page 15: You're beautiful the way you are; Page 16: Cake recipe. Women (in this case, but I realize this applies to others!) are constantly bombarded with hypocritical messages. "Lose 30 pounds by summer!", a magazine headline blares as you are waiting in… Continue reading The Conflict of Contradiction

Reflections of Anxiety and the Struggle for Peace

Unless you've experienced anxiety firsthand or lived through it with a loved one, it can be very difficult to understand why people dwell on things. Perhaps some people want to keep something in the forefront, but for me, things that happened before can work very hard in your mind to keep you unfocused and disoriented.… Continue reading Reflections of Anxiety and the Struggle for Peace

Divergent Destiny

If someone would have told me that years ago I would be facing the imminent loss of my father, so soon after the death of my husband AND still getting over the loss of my mother, I would have called them a liar. I would have said that no one could endure that much in… Continue reading Divergent Destiny

In the Silence I Found Myself

As a survivor of domestic violence and emotional abuse, I've had to come to terms with the fact that not everyone is going to treat me now the way I was treated in my past. Sure, there are times when there is something said that triggers a memory and makes me anxious and I may… Continue reading In the Silence I Found Myself

The Circuitous Chasm of Grief

Having experienced an extraordinary amount of grief in a short period of time with the loss of both my parents and husband one after the other, I'm often asked how I "got through it" or how I "survived" it. Being that grief is such an individual process and has a fluidity not often realized until… Continue reading The Circuitous Chasm of Grief

There is no Shame in Being a Survivor

There are some people in my life who would probably prefer that I drop the issue of my former abuse done by my late husband. There were plenty of people who knew what I was going through and they CHOSE to not intercede. Once, I was told by someone I went to for help, "NO… Continue reading There is no Shame in Being a Survivor

The Delicious Reveling in Being Alone

It took me (and is still taking by all realistic accounts) quite a long time to even begin to contemplate and comprehend being alone as a positive thing. Solitude is underrated, as we as human beings tend to flock towards being social. Terms like "close-knit neighborhood" and "cliques" and "belonging" to a book club/gym/group etc… Continue reading The Delicious Reveling in Being Alone