These Small Hours

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BMfzPbONyVA I simply and truly cannot believe how many years are marked today from the passing of my mom. Having lost so many people in my life in such a short period of time doesn't have a word or description. I've been asked countless times how I endured the loss of my mother, then my… Continue reading These Small Hours

Well That Was Stressful

This summer, I chose to go back to college. Wonderful right? Feeling great about myself, finally pursuing my degree. Yes, until I realized that I was taking FOUR three credit courses in a summer-timed schedule. That means that each class requires about 3-4 weeks of work in one week. So, yeah. Thankfully, two of them… Continue reading Well That Was Stressful

Divergent Destiny

If someone would have told me that years ago I would be facing the imminent loss of my father, so soon after the death of my husband AND still getting over the loss of my mother, I would have called them a liar. I would have said that no one could endure that much in… Continue reading Divergent Destiny

In the Silence I Found Myself

As a survivor of domestic violence and emotional abuse, I've had to come to terms with the fact that not everyone is going to treat me now the way I was treated in my past. Sure, there are times when there is something said that triggers a memory and makes me anxious and I may… Continue reading In the Silence I Found Myself

Ghosts in the Machine

A long, long time ago in a far away place within my mind, there existed nothing but chaos. There was this resounding, continuous droning in my mind of all the things that I was facing, dealing with, living with...experiencing. I felt I didn't have control of any kind over my destiny, my future, even the… Continue reading Ghosts in the Machine

The Locket

I remember the day my youngest daughter brought it to me, asking me to find a way to put a certain photo inside the locket. I grew up with a mother who was SO talented at putting photos in lockets. I had never done it before, but since her death, I've come across lockets that… Continue reading The Locket

The Unique Occurrence of Finding Happiness and Love after Widowhood (and learning to be happy about it)

After you emerge from the grief of widowhood, there is no particular time frame. You don't wake up on day 167 and say, "I'm done grieving." Well, I can't speak for everyone, but in general and in my own personal experience and research, grieving is something that, for some, is never finished.  For others, it… Continue reading The Unique Occurrence of Finding Happiness and Love after Widowhood (and learning to be happy about it)

Accept the Things I Cannot Change

I'm pretty sure I've used this quote before because, well, I still am dealing with some very difficult people in my life. When you reflect upon the challenges and other things that you've gone through in your life and you realize as you get older that you need to somehow begin the process of coming… Continue reading Accept the Things I Cannot Change

The Never Ceasing Evolution Defining Friendship

I read once that friends are the siblings we were never given. I've reflected upon that thought many times over the years. I feel closer to my best friend than I ever have to my only sibling. What intrudes upon my thoughts of late is the definition of friendship. Many times, I see social media… Continue reading The Never Ceasing Evolution Defining Friendship

Removing the Stigma of Therapy and The Never Ending Search for My Happy Ending

Once in a while, when I mention to someone, "I am in therapy", I hesitate. I believe that subconsciously, my thoughts go to, "What will they think of me if I'm in therapy?" "Will they think I'm somehow damaged...broken?" "Maybe if I tell them why it will help?". Most people who know my story of… Continue reading Removing the Stigma of Therapy and The Never Ending Search for My Happy Ending