When I saw this number on the monitor, I have to admit, I was pretty scared; shaking even. I knew the repercussions of a number this high and that I literally could have a stroke at any moment. This is my backup monitor that I used to double check. I think I put 464 on my last post because I was just so upset and didn’t want to recheck the monitor. Normalizing the “quarantine snacking” mentality that was being chatted about, I decided to just “enjoy” myself and not “deprive” myself while stuck in the house. Little did I know that I was actually killing myself with these numbers.
Since I made that first post around May 18th, I have lost THIRTEEN pounds. Yes, you read that correctly. Is it all weight, fat and actual pounds? Nah, I’m sure a good portion in the beginning was water from being bloated and all the excess sodium I’m sure I had in my system. Taking a look at what I was eating, I’m sure I was at least 1,000 calories a day over my reasonable goal. I was eating cereal and a banana in the morning, setting the stage for a day of higher numbers. I walk most days and I am beginning to think that might have saved me a bit.
I already feel different, less than a month later. I have completely revamped everything about my eating. While I have significantly changed my entire diet, purchasing and habits, I am not depriving myself. I know the weight loss will slow now, but I won’t let that discourage me. Adopting better eating patterns is how I will live from now on. Sure, I’ve used methods over the years that have resulted in significant weight loss and better health, but I need to knock it the hell off and realize I’m not getting any younger. Just because I’m at home much more often does not give me an excuse to sit around and get unhealthy from too much snacking.
Overnight, so many things in the house were just ticking time bombs when I looked at them. I’d gone from really healthy snacking with things like popcorn, nuts and seeds, veggies and dip to potato chips, snack mixes with cheese curls and pretzels and other really unhealthy choices. Now? I keep things like pistachios and sunflower seeds within reach, and just yesterday, my husband and I went to a produce market and stocked up on lots of fresh veggies. I’d already started eating salads and putting broccoli and cauliflower on my plate with meals, cut way back on breads and eliminated cereal, almost all milk and I log EVERYTHING. I also measure and weigh things as well. Finding out what an actual serving of peanut butter is will shock you! I also take along a snack when I leave the house, like pistachios, so I can’t fall into the “Oh I’m so hungry and we won’t be home for another hour. Let’s stop and get something!” trap that I usually found myself in before.
I use MyFitnessPal on my desktop and I log literally every bite and sip. It’s free and it keeps me informed and accountable. I have ordered pizza, eaten cookies and had a small snack sized bag of chips with my lunch. Allowing in a little fun is recommended and worth it! I feel like I’m treating myself and just go right back to my healthy habits immediately. I eat within my daily limits and when I’ve reached my goals, I’m done. Period. Doesn’t matter if I’m watching a good movie; I don’t NEED to eat so I don’t. I don’t need to spend hundreds every month like I used to on programs, BUT I’m very grateful it was there for me when I needed it. There is nothing wrong with that type of structure, but I’m allergic to soy now and I must do it on my own. Online sites and apps have enough information to research things and do it the right way, and it’s worth the time it takes that you put into it.
Everything about what I’m doing is making me feel better with each passing day. I’m grateful for access to so much fresh produce and the ability to track things during the day. I made sure to have my macros checked by a professional to ensure I’m eating the right quantity and type of food for my height and weight. It’s working for me, so sticking with it is just the logical thing. Some days I need to eat a few more nuts, seeds or other item of substance in order to eat ENOUGH calories. Go figure. Instead of “I’m going to watch this YouTube video, let me get a bowl of crunchy stuff”, I’m heading to the fridge and pouring myself a bit more water and if I’m truly hungry, I’ll eat. However, I’m usually not.
Diabetes is nothing to mess around with. I had gestational diabetes with all three of my children and the third time was the charm…it stayed around after that. HOWEVER, while I won’t get rid of it forever, I CAN tame it to the point where I don’t need to take a shot every morning. I know because I’ve done it before. Remember a long time ago when Jenny Craig was around? (I truly don’t know if it exists anymore. Edit: YUP, they still are!) They had a slogan, “Nothing tastes as good as thin feels”. I used to joke around that that was a bunch of stuff, because obviously Jenny never ate ice cream from my local creamery, but in all seriousness, you have to dig deep to figure that one out if you are truly in denial. I have been in denial for many years, but I now realize that if I don’t stop the denial, how many years will I have left?
It’s super easy to open a bag of chips, microwave something easy, or a million other unhealthy actions. Everything takes effort, but once you get into a routine of preparing healthy foods, you truly have an appreciation for what you eat and I know I enjoy it more. I need to stop starting this journey over and over and just keep on a path that will give me better health, control over diabetes and hopefully the longevity that will bring.
I’d love to hear from you about your experiences with diabetes, how it’s affected your life and what you’ve done to improve your well being!